Cupid Confessions-the last chapter

He is just not that into me. I needed to have that on record and stop kidding myself :( I am okay and on my way. I do not hate him or wish he would go sky diving and his parachute fails :) seriously, I don't :)
Also, I now acknowledge that friendships with the opposite sex are a bad idea. I mean real friendships where secrets are shared, time is spent, fears exposed, truth told...these actions one by one; day by day set the said two people up for trouble. I am done cultivating those kinds of friendships. Perhaps it can be said that this is one of my 2013 resolutions- nurture only friendships with women. We (women) need each other 'more' after all :)

In other news, Oswald Chambers through his well loved devotion my Utmost for His Highest continues to bless me every morning or evening, fortifying my bible reading, and all this from beyond the grave. The depth of analysis, the clarity of expression and the evident Holy Spirit inspiration is fantastic. Take the following statement, for example;
"When a man fails in personal christian experience, it is nearly always because he has never received anything. Conversion is not regeneration. People register vows, sign pledges and determine to go through...none of this is salvation."
I am challenged everyday and I find that I look forward to scouring the Scriptures with such excellent hand holding :)

I resumed cooking. I realize I had not cooked in over six or seven months! It's fun. It's cheaper- in that I spend less in restaurants and I am honing my skills for the time when the proverbial way to a man's heart must be found :)

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